various ramblings ~ Kids doctors appointments and my devotions

The cold virus has hit our house...It is a cold and not the flu. There has not been fevers or body aches just coughing, sniffles, nasal congestion. It has been lingering for nearly two weeks. With three adults and seven children in one house that's to be expected. The two that give us the biggest fears are Anneliese and Nique's daughter, Savannah. They both can get pretty bad. Today for the first time in over a year I had to break down and give Anneliese a breathing treatment. We took her to the doctor, no signs of bacterial infections in nose, throat, no ear infection, lungs sounded clear but O2 sats were around 97. So we are doing breathing treatments for a few days to clear the passages. This is hard for me but I KNOW she needs it. It is a love hate relationship with me and steroids. I hate them but I love that we have the ability to have them and that they can make her better.

Caleb and Leo had dental appointments today. I am thankful for insurance and that doctors contract with them. I dislike the doctors that require 20% of billable charge payment when I know that the insurance will pay then the doctors office will have to pay me back.

In my devotions. I had an AH AH moment. I am valuable and don't have to prove myself to anyone. Why is it always so hard for me to believe? Why do I always feel I have to be in competition with someone else? Why do I let someone else determine my value? These have been questions I have always struggled with... I never felt good enough someone was ALWAYS better than me at home at school at work even at church but not while I may still struggle and will have good days and bad days Together God and I work on it. Why am I valuable? God makes me valuable Isn't that awesome!!! As a godly woman I am free of having to prove myself and can be strong but don't have to use my strength to control. THANK YOU for my ah ah moment. God is so GOOD. Emile Barnes and Keep it Simple. I am reading 2 and 3 days at a time. Journaling pages taking notes. Slowly God is working on my heart to let go and give to HIM. It doesn't matter what anyone else is doing in their house with their kids, it only matters to me, my husband and God what we are doing with our kids.

The other I am reading Who Got Peanut Butter on My Daily Planner? by Cindy Dagnan Cindy Dagnan is giving a heart felt look on where are my priorities as a stay at home mom and do my priorities reflect that. 15 minutes at a time life will come under control...The perfectionist in me has to NOT GIVE up or take over. I tend to crash and burn. God is in control not me. That is so freeing.

To the man who pleases Him God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness. Ecclesiates 2:26

My prayer is that I please God in all I do.